When is enough, enough?

Husband has been in a pissy mood the past few weeks. Getting mad at everybody for any little thing. The kids and I are stressed out. Im tired.

I had the baby three weeks ago. Inconvenient for him because he was working long days and I started having contractions when he was already in bed for the night. Long story short, I end up having the baby alone. He fell asleep in the car (so he says) when he left the delivery room to get the charger for his iPhone. I guess I should be careful what I wish for because I did end up alone.

I labored alone and had the baby alone in a room full of nurses and doctors. When he did finally show up, I couldn’t look at him, I was disgusted. Few days later I told him how I felt about him not being there for me and his answer was “…thats what the medics are for.” This just confirms my feelings about him. He is losing his family and he doesn’t care.

I hate the situation the kids and I are in. I hate my husband for being selfish. I really need to focus and figure out if fighting for my family is worth it. I am beginning to think the kids and I can have a better life without him.

Our family has been through enough. I want my kids to be happy. I want to be happy. Why doesn’t my husband want the same things? How can he throw us away like garbage?

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5 thoughts on “When is enough, enough?

  1. betrayed1979

    I’m so sorry that you’re having to go through all of this…it does get better, trust me, but only when you set boundaries for yourself. He won’t just magically wake up one day and realize what a dick he’s been. Unfortunately, he will have to hit rock bottom and be faced with losing everything. Even then, he still might not change…but, you will…trust me! You’re a military wife, trust me you have options. I’m a SNCO, let me know if you have questions and things you can do….

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  2. militarydeservesbetter

    Sorry to hear about your difficulties. Congrats on having the baby though! Keep your head up. If you can have a baby on your own, you can do anything alone! You are stronger than you feel.

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  3. Jolene

    I’m so sorry to hear that you were alone….my heart breaks for you. He doesn’t deserve to be called a man or father……a husband he is not.

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  4. Kim Raya

    The title of your post says it all….I had enough at least a thousand times, and each time I went back to him until…I didn’t. There came a time when I didn’t go back because it was clear that I was enabling the situation by the continuous acceptance (even if subconsciously) of his mistreatment.

    You and your baby are precious. PRECIOUS. Don’t let your husband cause you to believe otherwise.

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