We are not fighting, but I haven’t and will not forgive him. He says he will not do it again (heard that before) and I can check the phone bill, phone locator, bank accounts, etc. Well I checked and so far he has been good. He even leaves his wallet home in the mornings and only takes his ID to pt.
Even though he is doing this, I told him I do not trust him. I don’t know if I ever will. If he doesn’t want to get help for himself and for us together then I can’t forgive. He says all he has ever did was text (sext) people. I am seeing my doctor tomorrow for my pregnancy and will be requesting Std tests be done. I am afraid and confused, but I know it is something I have to do.
As of right now, I am calm and trying to think things through. I also cannot just up and move since I am a high risk pregnancy and going “home” to family is not an option. So as usual, I just have to suck it up and put on my smile in public and be strong for the kids.